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SOUL STREAM

[Forum Log 113: the resting grounds]

TW: Heavy implications of suicide and suicidal ideation

Log Date: 5016U (10 years ago)

manticore77: holy shit

manticore77: you actually did it

manticore77: you hacked through my firewall

manticore77: congrats lol

honeybear: idk what im even looking at

honeybear: why are there so many docs that say “plans for castigation”

manticore77: theyre exactly what they say they are

honeybear: why does the last one just list out names

honeybear: am i looking at a fucking hit list

honeybear: am i liable by association now

manticore77: dont bother thinking like that lol

manticore77: its people the manticore code is going out to after im gone

honeybear: why are you planning for being gone

manticore77: oh

manticore77: oh honey

manticore77: i thought you knew horus

honeybear: not everything but enough

manticore77: honey

manticore77: the manticore is

manticore77: actually

manticore77: what do you think this forum is? how do you think you got access?

honeybear: idk i was fucking around and found out

manticore77: this place is called the resting grounds

manticore77: because everyone here is dead or has died or will die

manticore77: in one way or another

honeybear: oh

manticore77: i thought you knew

manticore77: because those are the only people who get access

honeybear: turns out im not as smart as i think i am

manticore77: for what it’s worth

manticore77: i was hoping you’d lose access at some point

honeybear: not there yet i guess

manticore77: you can get there if you want

manticore77: stay away from manticore code

manticore77: you seem like more of a goblin girl

honeybear: how soon

honeybear: when are your “castigation plans” happening

honeybear: just wondering

manticore77: one more month

[Forum Log 164: in the shadow of the godhead]

Log Date: 5017U (9 years ago)

honeybear: i’ve been thinking

invademerchant56: so glad you got a new hobby

honeybear: shut up

honeybear: there’s so much i don’t get

honeybear: about ra

invademerchant56: RA

honeybear: thats what i typed

horuswitchO0O: capitals are important

horuswitchO0O: also

horuswitchO0O: not getting it is the point

horuswitchO0O: well its one of the points

honeybear: i dont want to study RA im not stupid

honeybear: existing is better than not existing

invademerchant56: good

invademerchant56: you can be trusted not to attach yourself to a manticore about to blow up

honeybear: …

honeybear: yeah

honeybear: back to the point

honeybear: what is the point actually

honeybear: RA is

honeybear: there

honeybear: and that’s it unless someone breaks the rules

horuswitchO0O: exactly

horuswitchO0O: it’s perfect

honeybear: ?

invademerchant56: there’s legit no better way from them to be

honeybear: im processing nothing

invademerchant56: process less

horuswitchO0O: let me put it this way

horuswitchO0O: what would you do if you could do everything and be everything?

honeybear: change

honeybear: change myself

honeybear: change a lot of other people

honeybear: terrible people

invademerchant56: thats great and all but where does the line get drawn before everything gets changed into something else and this universe ceases to exist?

honeybear: it gets drawn when it gets drawn

invademerchant56: incredibly vague and vaguely concerning

horuswitchO0O: i get it though

horuswitchO0O: we couldn’t handle being that much and not making everything constantly reckon with that

honeybear: why do u worship RA

horuswitchO0O: not everyone here worships the godhead

horuswitchO0O: what i have is reverence. there’s a difference

invademerchant56: im just too scared to not be involved

honeybear: ??

invademerchant56: RA is there and i can’t understand but i also can’t look away

invademerchant56: i’d go insane

honeybear: so you want to be close to the god that could end everything but not too close

invademerchant56: yep

horuswitchO0O: it’s another kind of reverence i think

invademerchant56: i don’t have another word for it

honeybear: one more question

invademerchant56: no u can’t talk to RA

honeybear: i can talk all i want

honeybear: also not my question

honeybear: does RA

honeybear: care?

horuswitchO0O: enough to not change us