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Glamourpal: Added another log.

2026-04-23T03:53:28Z

Added another log.

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			<div style="font-weight:bold;line-height:1.6;">[Journal Logs 77-79: communion and chorus]</div>
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			'''Log Date: 5018U (8 years ago)'''


			Title: i hate dreams


			i saw the people who were dead but still living again. not much to say. i still hate it. it’s the only dream I’ve had for a year. it’s better when I don’t dream at all. then i don’t have to think about dad or jamu or azuka living past death and still suffering.


			it felt like something was trying to reach me again. i don’t want to message mom. she can’t help me out here. she shouldn’t have to.


			'''Log Date: 5018U (8 years ago)'''


			Title: Communion?


			The communion comes to me like a soaked dream / I remember dying and dying and dying again / First as a rod then as a cough then as an open mouth / I have died but my heart is still having aftershocks / I am a breathing convulsion of brain death / I have died but my ego can’t kill itself yet / The communion comes to me like a soaked dream / I open my mouth and am fed the breath of life / I open my mouth and am fed / I open my mouth / I will never have a communion with god / god can offer me nothing to eat / god is collective convulsion / This communion is with something that looks like me / it hasn’t died either


			I remember writing this but I don’t remember being awake for it.


			'''Log Date: 5018U (8 years ago)'''


			Title: heartbeats are speaking now


			i got another support mission today and everything was so loud. it was like humming in the other pilots’ chests. invade wasn’t lying when he said he was scared. he’s only okay when his heruka mech is about to punch someone out of their cockpit. i think witch might resent everyone. or she resents that no one is as quiet in the field as she is.


			is this some kind of gift?


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Glamourpal: Added another forum post.

2026-04-22T12:11:33Z

Added another forum post.

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			<div style="font-weight:bold;line-height:1.6;">[Forum Log 164: in the shadow of the godhead]</div>
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			'''Log Date: 5017U (9 years ago)'''


			honeybear: i’ve been thinking


			invademerchant56: so glad you got a new hobby


			honeybear: shut up

			honeybear: there’s so much i don’t get

			honeybear: about ra


			invademerchant56: RA


			honeybear: thats what i typed


			horuswitchO0O: capitals are important

			horuswitchO0O: also

			horuswitchO0O: not getting it is the point

			horuswitchO0O: well its one of the points


			honeybear: i dont want to study RA im not stupid

			honeybear: existing is better than not existing


			invademerchant56: good

			invademerchant56: you can be trusted not to attach yourself to a manticore about to blow up


			honeybear: …

			honeybear: yeah

			honeybear: back to the point

			honeybear: what is the point actually

			honeybear: RA is

			honeybear: there

			honeybear: and that’s it unless someone breaks the rules


			horuswitchO0O: exactly

			horuswitchO0O: it’s perfect


			honeybear: ?


			invademerchant56: there’s legit no better way from them to be


			honeybear: im processing nothing


			invademerchant56: process less


			horuswitchO0O: let me put it this way

			horuswitchO0O: what would you do if you could do everything and be everything?


			honeybear: change

			honeybear: change myself

			honeybear: change a lot of other people

			honeybear: terrible people


			invademerchant56: thats great and all but where does the line get drawn before everything gets changed into something else and this universe ceases to exist?


			honeybear: it gets drawn when it gets drawn


			invademerchant56: incredibly vague and vaguely concerning


			horuswitchO0O: i get it though

			horuswitchO0O: we couldn’t handle being that much and not making everything constantly reckon with that


			honeybear: why do u worship RA


			horuswitchO0O: not everyone here worships the godhead

			horuswitchO0O: what i have is reverence. there’s a difference


			invademerchant56: im just too scared to not be involved


			honeybear: ??


			invademerchant56: RA is there and i can’t understand but i also can’t look away

			invademerchant56: i’d go insane


			honeybear: so you want to be close to the god that could end everything but not too close


			invademerchant56: yep


			horuswitchO0O: it’s another kind of reverence i think


			invademerchant56: i don’t have another word for it


			honeybear: one more question


			invademerchant56: no u can’t talk to RA


			honeybear: i can talk all i want

			honeybear: also not my question

			honeybear: does RA

			honeybear: care?


			horuswitchO0O: enough to not change us

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Spiderjjr45: added Category:In The Shadows of a Willow using HotCat

2026-04-22T01:44:00Z

added Category:In The Shadows of a Willow using HotCat

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Glamourpal: Added a date.

2026-04-20T22:15:27Z

Added a date.

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			'''Log Date: 5016U (10 years ago)'''

Glamourpal at 18:06, 20 April 2026

2026-04-20T18:06:02Z

Glamourpal at 18:03, 20 April 2026

2026-04-20T18:03:45Z

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Glamourpal: added Category:Astral using HotCat

2026-04-20T18:03:04Z

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Glamourpal: Created Hellcat’s Access page.

2026-04-20T18:02:44Z

Created Hellcat’s Access page.

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<div style="font-weight:bold;line-height:1.6;">[Forum Log 113: the resting grounds]</div>
<div style="line-height:1.0;">TW: Heavy implications of suicide and suicidal ideation</div>
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manticore77: holy shit
manticore77: you actually did it
manticore77: you hacked through my firewall
manticore77: congrats lol

honeybear: idk what im even looking at
honeybear: why are there so many docs that say “plans for castigation”

manticore77: theyre exactly what they say they are

honeybear: why does the last one just list out names
honeybear: am i looking at a fucking hit list
honeybear: am i liable by association now

manticore77: dont bother thinking like that lol
manticore77: its people the manticore code is going out to after im gone

honeybear: why are you planning for being gone

manticore77: oh
manticore77: oh honey
manticore77: i thought you knew horus

honeybear: not everything but enough

manticore77: honey
manticore77: the manticore is
manticore77: actually
manticore77: what do you think this forum is? how do you think you got access?

honeybear: idk i was fucking around and found out

manticore77: this place is called the resting grounds
manticore77: because everyone here is dead or has died or will die
manticore77: in one way or another

honeybear: oh

manticore77: i thought you knew
manticore77: because those are the only people who get access

honeybear: turns out im not as smart as i think i am

manticore77: for what it’s worth
manticore77: i was hoping you’d lose access at some point

honeybear: not there yet i guess

manticore77: you can get there if you want
manticore77: stay away from manticore code
manticore77: you seem like more of a goblin girl

honeybear: how soon
honeybear: when are your “castigation plans” happening
honeybear: just wondering

manticore77: one more month

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	manticore77: holy shit		manticore77: holy shit

	manticore77: you actually did it		manticore77: you actually did it

	manticore77: you hacked through my firewall		manticore77: you hacked through my firewall

	manticore77: congrats lol		manticore77: congrats lol


	honeybear: idk what im even looking at		honeybear: idk what im even looking at

	honeybear: why are there so many docs that say “plans for castigation”		honeybear: why are there so many docs that say “plans for castigation”


	manticore77: theyre exactly what they say they are		manticore77: theyre exactly what they say they are


	honeybear: why does the last one just list out names		honeybear: why does the last one just list out names

	honeybear: am i looking at a fucking hit list		honeybear: am i looking at a fucking hit list

	honeybear: am i liable by association now		honeybear: am i liable by association now


	manticore77: dont bother thinking like that lol		manticore77: dont bother thinking like that lol

	manticore77: its people the manticore code is going out to after im gone		manticore77: its people the manticore code is going out to after im gone


	honeybear: why are you planning for being gone		honeybear: why are you planning for being gone


	manticore77: oh		manticore77: oh

	manticore77: oh honey		manticore77: oh honey

	manticore77: i thought you knew horus		manticore77: i thought you knew horus


	honeybear: not everything but enough		honeybear: not everything but enough


	manticore77: honey		manticore77: honey

	manticore77: the manticore is		manticore77: the manticore is

	manticore77: actually		manticore77: actually

	manticore77: what do you think this forum is? how do you think you got access?		manticore77: what do you think this forum is? how do you think you got access?


	honeybear: idk i was fucking around and found out		honeybear: idk i was fucking around and found out


	manticore77: this place is called the resting grounds		manticore77: this place is called the resting grounds

	manticore77: because everyone here is dead or has died or will die		manticore77: because everyone here is dead or has died or will die

	manticore77: in one way or another		manticore77: in one way or another


	honeybear: oh		honeybear: oh


	manticore77: i thought you knew		manticore77: i thought you knew

	manticore77: because those are the only people who get access		manticore77: because those are the only people who get access


	honeybear: turns out im not as smart as i think i am		honeybear: turns out im not as smart as i think i am


	manticore77: for what it’s worth		manticore77: for what it’s worth

	manticore77: i was hoping you’d lose access at some point		manticore77: i was hoping you’d lose access at some point


	honeybear: not there yet i guess		honeybear: not there yet i guess


	manticore77: you can get there if you want		manticore77: you can get there if you want

	manticore77: stay away from manticore code		manticore77: stay away from manticore code

	manticore77: you seem like more of a goblin girl		manticore77: you seem like more of a goblin girl


	honeybear: how soon		honeybear: how soon

	honeybear: when are your “castigation plans” happening		honeybear: when are your “castigation plans” happening

	honeybear: just wondering		honeybear: just wondering


	manticore77: one more month		manticore77: one more month